Taurus Rocks

A friend of mine sent an e-mail earlier about different zodiac signs. While going through mine, I can't help but laugh because I'm guilty of some descriptions stated in the e-mail. 

Wala lang, found it very amusing. Too bad, I can't include the source. Tsk. Anyhow, don't mind the grammatical and spelling errors. My side comments in red and some characteristics which describe me in blue. Thank you for the e-mail, Kath!

A slim moderately tall woman (I WISH). Taurus woman is funny and a jolly person. Square facial bone structure, high cheek bone. Her round big eyes sparkle with wit and curiosity. You will not see many round faces Taurus women (ROUND-FACED WOMAN HERE), and mainly she will have a strong jaw line. 

She is a constantly change person. If she up sets, she will not show it and will keep it to herself for a long time, and will remember them so well. If she gets really mad at you, you will suddenly become a totally and completely stranger to her. 

She is a patient person, but always need new excitement. She hates long talk meeting, long and endless conversation. She can be in love with you today, and one day she could act as if she has never loved you before. She has patient with what she wants to do and will never give up until she gets there (I WISH). She will be very persistent in what she is doing till she has reasons for stopping her project, then she will quit. 

Money for Taurus woman is not the most important factor in life. She thinks of money as an instrument for assuring of a good living. She has more satisfaction in achieving her goals more than satisfaction in fine cloths and luxuries. If you like a woman who always thinks of love and romance, then you are dating the wrong girl. You can not tell her to stay at home, she likes to work and preferred not work at home.  

She loves animals and likes to surround by animals (NAAAH). Love is in her head, but Freedom is in her soul (SO TRUE). She has her own idea about love and afraid to show her true feeling for fear of rejection. She is not the type to talk about love, but she sure has a strange way to show it. She is not good in showing when she is in love, but if she loves you she will be honest to you than any other women.  

She will be honest to her love one, but at the same time seems distant. You will have a good relationship with her, if you allow her freedom. Do not force her to be with you in a poker game which she hates, but let she goes out swinging with her friends if she wants to. She will be different than other girls, and she thinks different is one of her unique quality. She is a public figure but belongs to no one. She will not stay with you, if she thinks you are not sincere. She likes you to have personality, but better not to compete with her (DING DING DING). Loves her, but not too much for she afraid it will limiting her freedom.  

She always stand out of the crowd for something she dares to do. You could see her dress like a poor farmer dinning in the fancy restaurant, or dress like a nun in an a cocktail dress party. If you are a politician who are looking for a wife, she will make a good one because she is cleverly smart and she could get along socially with any type of crowds. 

She is not a jealous type because she has to know you thoroughly before accepting you in her life (JUST DON'T GIVE ME A SINGLE REASON TO BE JEALOUS). She has more curiosity in life than wondering if right now you are flirting with someone else. If you keep a distant from her, or go away for a few days, she will miss you more (TRUE). Even when she is dating you, she also able to fond of someone else, if you do not have something she is looking for. She will never disappoint you or hide behind your back to make you loose face, but she is the type who just going to tell you to your face that "We're better off breaking up".  

She always remember her first love. Taurus woman holds the best record for divorce for she does not care about how people think of her, but every things should be done for "Happiness". 

She has lots of friends and sure of herself, so you will hardly see she delays any of her thoughts before her action. If she think of something, she will go ahead and does it. She has many men wanting her for her constant changes is the challenge. She can be cute and funny, but suddenly cool and tough. She has her own style of dressing up, so you could see her dress like an old mate today, and tomorrow she may dress like she comes from Mars. She will have that interesting hair, dress and a look unique from anyone else.

She likes to learn about your dreams and your thought. She has fun teasing you and making jokes. If she did something wrong, she won't hide it from you, but do not ask when she is not in the mood to talk about it. She hates to owe people money and take promise seriously. If you promise to pay her back, you'd better paid up. 

If you want to make it with Taurus woman, then do not be jealous or possessive, do not be narrow minded, do not criticize about nonsense or small and insignificant matters. Try to likes her friends and let she has her privacy, then she can be very sweet to you.

The Other End Of The Spectrum

Admittedly, I'm one of those who despise people who have romantic overtures while in a relationship. I have a couple of friends who have fallen so hard to this kind of setup. They eye on someone and when their prey falls, that's when the problem begins.

Recently, I had a serious convo with a friend of mine. I have known him for years and he is one of the most faithful dudes out there. To my surprise, he confessed that he is cheating on his girlfriend of four years. I experienced a 5-second lag before I had the strength to ask, "seriously?! Why?!" FYI, his girlfriend is every man's dream. She's pretty, dainty, and intelligent. All that. 

I could sense his fear of what I will say and do after we delve into details because he knows how I react to infidelity issues. So I calmed myself and zipped my lips. Our convo ran for hours. We engaged ourselves in a full-on debate. I had to speak and act like a lawyer in behalf of his girlfriend because I have been cheated on and I know how it feels like to have zero self-esteem and confidence to boot. 

At the end, of course both of us know he deserves a hardcore slap and live a miserable life. But, I have to admit that he raised some points which made me nod and say "sa bagay, may point ka."  Let me share some of my realizations.

1. Thou shall be desirable. Your partner encounters different kinds of women every single day. Women who are prettier, sexier, and smarter than you. You can't control your partner from expressing his admiration towards them, but you should get the heat on. A little challenge would go a long way. This does not mean to involve yourself in a bitchfest with the woman your partner admires. Challenge yourself to constantly improve physically, mentally, and emotionally. He fell in love with you for some reason and the goal is to make him fall over and over again.

2. Thou shall keep a streak of mystery. When everything is disclosed and the comfort level turns way too high, that's when love slowly wanes. Things turn dull and you already find it hard to distinguish your romantic relationship from friendship.

3. Thou shall not be clingy. Always asking about his whereabouts? C'mon, you could do better than that. You don't always need to be on the lookout and guard his social networking sites 24/7. Find something interesting which will help you divert your attention away from him. When he feels that you could stand on your own, it challenges him to feel wanted again.

4. Thou shall stroke his ego. They take a second look at women who find them sexy and handsome. They are looking for an assurance that they still have IT. So go ahead, compliment him. I think this is one of the major reasons behind cheating. They grab every inch of opportunity to flirt with women who stroke their egos the right way. 

It really takes a lot of effort to make a relationship work. To make your partner think about you day in and day out. Sad to say, cheating either physically or emotionally has become a phase in most relationships. This either builds or destroys them depending on the gravity of the situation. But never run out of hope. Every relationship is different. Just because it happened to most people you know should not give you a reason to assume that it will also happen to you. Who knows, you just might be one of the lucky ones who has a partner who won't put you through such agony.

Renewed Through Christian Life Program (CLP)

Yesterday, I shared my self-renewal experience to some member of the Singles For Christ (SFC) and participant of Christian Life Program (CLP) Batch 42. I don't know whether I covered all the points that I have prepared due to my stage fright, so I'm also gonna share it here. I hope you will get a dash of inspiration and attend the orientation next Friday, 20th March 2012.

I know some of you are having cold feet about this Christian Life Program (CLP). Thoughts such as "I'm unworthy", "I don't belong here", and "I'm such a sinner" run through your minds. Well, I guess that's quite normal because I thought about those things a year ago when I was in your place.

I had a pile of doubts and hesitations when I was invited to attend the CLP. I felt unworthy because I had monsters in my closet. I was not living a morally upright lifestyle. I have done some things which were against the flow of nature. I was afraid of the responsibility and pressure which I will be forced to carry once I enter in the community. I assumed that once you are in, others will put you on a pedestal and expect you to speak and act like a perfect person. And when you don't, they would take it against you and the whole community. I was not prepared for that.

So going back, I decided to give CLP a shot. Got nothing to lose anyway and I felt that it would somehow ease my homesickness. During CLP, I still had a feeling of uneasiness which led me to miss some sessions. I was tempted to leave the community. But through God's grace, I somehow bounced back. I decided to let go and let God. Little by little, I felt a change in my heart and realized how the community fed my hungry soul. More to that, I found L.O.V.E.

Liberation from my doubts and fears. Through the talks and sharing of the members, I became more convinced about His existence. The community inspired me so much that my faith grew stronger.

Order and direction. Before, my life was just like a road trip. You know how road trips are. Fun and spontaneous. But at the end of the day, you would ask yourself "where exactly am I heading to?" This community served as a map to me.  It gave direction and meaning to my spiritual journey with Him. 

Vocal. I used to talk to God in a monotonous manner. Used to pray without depth because it became a part of my daily routine. Then, my communication with Him dramatically changed. Every time I pray, different emotions take place. I smile and I cry with Him. I imagine Him to be so real who's standing in front of me and holding my hands.

Elation. This genuine elation sprouted when I learned to surrender. My renewed soul made me have a positive outlook in life. Needless to say, I owe this to the community which gave me hundreds of reasons to see the brighter side of things because of Him.

True L.O.V.E is the fruit I reaped here which I hope you would also reap and even more. Just always remember that we are all in the same boat. We are all sinners which is why your past should not hinder you from experiencing God's love at its best. As they say, it's not important where you came from, but where you're heading to. So grab this opportunity to walk with Him and I'm pretty sure you won't regret it.

I hope to see more participants next week. :)

Easter Thoughts

"Easter is about your renewal of commitment." - Father Ding

Those were the words that struck me last night during the mass. It was like renewing my vows with God and starting anew in His loving arms. It felt like He took a thousand daggers in me to save my deteriorating mind, ravaging heart, and dying soul. His power and grace never fail to amaze me. It makes me hang on to Him even more. I do not know what Bahrain and Singles For Christ (SFC) have done to me, but it made me a better follower of Christ. Again, better. Not perfect. I'm not a hypocrite. I'm still a sinner, but I now have this willingness to be manipulated and used by Him for His purpose. 

I realized a couple of things during Father Ding's homily, such as how we don't take this period seriously and let our minds wander elsewhere. GUILTY. How ignorant we are for not knowing the essence of Easter. GUILTY. In fairness, I grasped the fact that people should realize the value and sacrifice Jesus went through to save us which made me ask myself: Am I also sacrificing to give back the love He gave me? 

It is quite sad how we move mountains for people who hurt and put us down just to keep them in our lives. Yet with God, we neglect and easily give up on Him despite the blessings we receive (more than what we ask for). I guess this is a good time to contemplate about this. Do we always move mountains to make our relationship work with Him?

Happy Easter everyone! Spread the love! :)

When Alcohol Kicks In

So it happened again last Thursday during a friend's birthday celebration. I indulged myself in bottomless bullfrog with my friends. Before I could even realize that the alcohol kicked in, I passed out. I could only recall a few things I have done and said that night. My friends told me a lot of things I said that I could not remember (SWEAR!). They even told me I cried. What?! Why on earth would I cry?! :)) 

I guess what I spilled were suppressed thoughts and feelings. I am not worried about what I said because I assume each word came straight from the heart. I am extremely worried that it would be taken out of context. Also, I might have been too harsh which is definitely unintentional. Because of this incident, I swear I will limit my alcohol intake. Cheers to that!